Jan 3rd I leveled up to 41 and it's actually not bad. If I'm to be completely honest I can't believe I even made it this far. I never imagined what life would be like in my 40's, but here I am. My kids are all adults, my daughter will be 20 soon, so I won't even have teenagers anymore. I have grown (except in height, ha ha) in so many ways as a human. I care less of what people think of me and I truly try to live life to the fullest. I know it sounds cliche, but I used to always be worried about everyone else's opinion of me. Some of those opinions were crippling. It feels amazing to let that shit go.
My birthday was supposed to be a surprise, but I had recently gone down a horrible bipolar depressive episode that in the midst of a mental breakdown my wife told me about the birthday weekend she was planning for me. I felt horrible that I ruined the surprise, but it really helped me get through the holidays. I had something to look forward to!
I had an absolute blast at my best friend's house (almost quite literally)! I can't tell you how grateful I am that she moved to the east coast, and only a short road trip away. We ate a lot of yummy food, and just hung out. Her husband cooked for us and it was delicious! She also made tacos one night which was pretty awesome too. One night we also set off fireworks and almost burned the house down, but no one got hurt and now we have some pretty funny memories!
This photo shoot was supposed to take place outside in the snow. We waited all day for the snow to fall like the weather app said it would. It never did! My wife then went to the store and grabbed some unicorn decorations and we improvised! I set up my ring light and we took a lot of pictures and just had fun with it! It was probably the most fun I have had in a really long time.
xo,
Eeka
