Outfit Diary - The Mustard Romper

Sunday, October 22, 2017

Outfit Details:
Romper - Old Navy
Denim Shirt - Thrifted
Boots - Shoe Depot

If you notice in the pictures there is a lot of sunshine! In fact it's unseasonable warm here in Vermont. Most Octobers we have at least experienced a snow flurry or two by now, but nothing. It still kind of feels like summer! Since the weather was absolutely beautiful I thought why not wear the romper one more time! I know they were all the craze for a while, and I think I remember them making ones for men, right? Well this one is from Old Navy and it is super comfortable! It also adds a little extra color to my wardrobe. The only thing I don't like about rompers is the process of taking it off just to go to the bathroom! Not fun, but besides that I love it. Those boots by the way are my favorite. I practically live in them when the weather is just right. And we all know snow will be here soon!

Since October is almost over you know what that means! Halloween!! I was actually suppose to carve pumpkins this weekend but that didn't happen. Which makes me sad. Maybe sometime this week we will all get around to doing it! That's my little pumpkin in the pictures. I love it! My daughter picked out a huge pumpkin of course, which will interesting to see her carve. I got small ones because they are easier to carve! 

We have so much fun stuff planned for the next few weeks I cant wait! I really hope we get to go to a haunted house before Halloween is over! 


S'mores Icebox Cake Review

Tuesday, October 17, 2017

So, I was just scrolling through my Facebook feed the other day and in between the political madness and cat posts, I saw this magical dessert! I don't know about you, but I am a huge S'mores lover. I really love marshmallows a lot! Any recipe that has marshmallows in it is something I will have to make. This little piece of heaven literally melted in my mouth. I highly suggest making it!

I posted the video that I used as a reference at the bottom of this post. Now I say reference because I almost never follow a recipe exactly. If you are interested in making it here is the ingredient list...

-a box of graham crackers
-mini marshmallows
-Fluff (big tub of gooey heaven!)
-chocolate morsels 
-heavy whipping cream 

I pretty much followed the directions in the video, except I added a little powdered sugar and splash of vanilla while I was mixing the heavy cream, it came out a littler thicker this way. I also left my version in the oven to broil a little longer because I like my marshmallows a little more on the burnt side. It reminds me of camping! It came out really delicious and I highly recommend making it! I love that you don't have to actually bake it. And a fair warning, you won't be able to have just one piece! It's also a tad bit on the messy side. This cake didn't last a day, so I guess I will be making it again!


Currently - Fall Edition

Sunday, October 15, 2017

If you're a regular here on Live.Love.Random. you would know that I do a little post called Currently. In fact a lot of bloggers do. Feel free to copy my currently topics and do your own and share your link in the comments so I can read your posts! I actually love going back and seeing my old currently posts just to see how much I have grown or changed since then. You can also visit a couple of my posts here: Currently and Currently . It's one of my favorite posts to do.

Current Mood: Motivated

What a change!? I'm usually super un-motivated, but lately I have been in a let's-get-shit-done mood. In fact I have been replacing a lot of stuff around the house slowly. That picture above is my new door mat. The old one I had was really old! It saw me through 2 marriages in fact, and I felt that after I had spilled coffee all over it, that it was time to go. This new door mat is much more colorful and welcoming. My daughter loves it too! I've also replaced all my silverware and dishes. I mean why not?

Current Procrastination: Student Loans

Can I just say yuck. Good news is I do not have to pay them back anytime soon. The yuck part is all the paperwork. I have to go in and re-do my deferment, but I'm really glad that I can still do that for the time being. Bills are so stressful as it is. I'm just glad I can put this one off until I have my car paid off. 

Current Hair: Black and Greenish Teal

First let me apologize for all hair and lint on my dress! Ha! I am a real person and at the time had no idea all that was on there. To be honest I didn't feel like photoshopping it out either. Anyway, my hair is still 2 colors. I have it thrown up in a messy bun, which has been the hair-do of choice as of late. it's still half black and fades into a greenish teal color. Which you can see more clear in this post HERE.

Current Movie: Blade Runner 2049

If you haven't seen the original Blade Runner I highly suggest watching it before you see the new movie. There's also a book. One thing to keep in mind though is that it was made when special effects were lacking a little, so it's kind of cheesey, but the new movie is super awesome! A group of my friends and I got togther and watched the old version first and then we all went opeing night for 2049, which was last weekend, to see it! It's worth the watch, though I am kind of bias because I'm a huge Harrison Ford fan.

Current Fandom: Star Wars & Stranger Things

I am Star Wars obsessed! Yet, I do leave room for other fandoms. Right now Mary and I are re-watching Stanger Things for it's next season premiere. I can't tell you how excited I am!! Our friends will be hosting a Stranger Things marathon at their home and you know I will be spending the night to binge watch it! Joyce is one of my favorite characters, probably because I can relate to her a little too much. I also can't wait to see Eleven!

Current Truth: Weight

Like I mentioned in my last post, I'm on a weight loss journey. I have good days, and I have bad days. I try to capture pictures on my good days. People really dont understand the strife mental illness can cause, especially when it comes to eating healthy and staying at a healthy weight. Slowly but surly I'm getting there. I was almost 170 about 10 months ago on my small 5ft frame. I'm now around 147 with a goal weight of 135.Maybe even more later, but not bad so far. 

Current Book: Poetry by Pavana Reddy

I have so many books in my collection that I need to read, but I discovered some new poetry! Pavana Reddy is a writer who I feel is basically writing everything I feel. She has published a book of poetry and I want it! It helps me to read like-minded writers work to keep me focused and motivated, and she is one of them. I have a second book of poetry in the works and I want to finish and have it published by the end of this year. It's going to be much longer than my first, which you find here on Amazon.

Current Obsession: Strawberry Crush Soda

Okay, I just want to say that I never drink soda, especially since I have been trying to eat more healthy. But who can resist a cold fizzy drink flavored like a popsicle from my childhood! Not this girl! I was inncocently walking through my local grocery store and this little 4-pack of bottled heaven jumped right into my shopping cart! I didn't even notice when it made it through the checkout into my fridge! I wan't about to let it go to waste...HA!

Current Love: Flowers

Flowers, flowers, flowers! I always have a vase of fresh flowers on my dining table whether they are store bought or wildflowers from my beautiful yard. These flowers are mums and they are on a small bench in the back of my house. I also have another pot of these with burnt orange ones at my front door along with pumpkins.I have potted plants indoor that sprout flowers too. I am a sucker for some pretty flowers!

Currently Looking Forward To: Halloween! 

Can you believe that Halloween is right around the corner?! I feel like it totally crept up on us! Halloween is one of my favorite holidays for so many reasons. First of all because Fall is my favorite season! I love pumpkin spice everything (yes I'm that person) I have no shame! You'll catch me making pumpkin spice chocolate chip bread in the spring. I pretty much just love pumpkin. 2nd is all the fun decoartions! This holiday lets you have fun with things that you normally wouldn't want around your house, like spider webs! Not to mention all the costumes too! Such a super fun holiday!

I hope everyone out there is having a beautiful Fall season! The picture of the trees above are pretty much what it looks like everywhere here in Vermont. I feel like it has been very windy though, which means our peak season was short lived. A lot of our beautiful leaves are now on the ground. This will start our "stick season" which is the precursor to winter! Oh boy!


My Weight Loss Journey

Monday, October 9, 2017

Let me start off with saying that this is a very difficult post for me. I can't even tell you how many times I have written this post in my head and thought no, that's too graphic. So bare with me as I try to explain this the best I can.

After that first paragraph you might be asking yourself, what's the big deal? OR where are the helpful hints? Well there aren't any helpful hints to be honest, in fact my weight loss journey is far from average for quite a few reasons. As I write this post I'm at about 15 lbs lost. Some pounds on purpose and some just because I've been more active. This weight loss has been very gradual only because I'm very fragile when I'm trying to lose weight. 

Back in 2002 I saw a psychiatrist, nutritionist, and went through a lot of therapy. In fact, going to therapy was like my job then since I went 4 times a week. One of the things we figured out was that my weight gain at that time was "protection" weight. I was almost 180lbs on a small 5 ft frame. It was also around the time when I had my two children. Fast forward 15 years and I'm still here struggling with my weight and body image, amongst other things.

My ultimate plan is to lose 20lbs more which would be 35lbs total. I think that is a reasonable amount. I am currently in a state where I want to binge eat so bad! Like, I could sit down and eat an entire cake if I were given the chance. The only reason I won't is because type 2 diabetes runs in the family. I want to be around for my grandchildren and great grandchildren. 

This picture is the most recent I have after I got a tattoo. I'm genuinely happy here.

Another part of my weight loss journey, that is a challenge, is my battle with Body Dysmorphia Disorder. This disorder has been the bane of my existence and not something I like to admit having. There are moments where I get so obsessed with how I look that I will either not go anywhere, or throw clothes away, or sit and cry because of the anxiety it causes. I can't even tell you how many times I left the doctors office with nothing wrong with except the fact that my mind is constantly trying to torture me. With that said, this disorder can be a nightmare when trying to lose weight. The reason is because any slight variation to the way my body changes can either be for the better, or worse. This disorder also plays a huge part in my panic disorder but that's a whole other blog post.

I do allow myself to have plenty of cheat days but even these can throw me off. I start to see my mid-section reduce in size but it's like the smell of a donut can cause it to bulge all over again. I'm super lucky to have a great support system. My little family is great, except when they complain there's no food, which is code for junk food. I try not buy certain foods so I'm not tempted to eat it!   

Anyway, I'm giving myself a year to lose the next 20lbs. So I can slowly get used to the physical change. If I slip up, it's going to make me crazy but it's not the end of the world.